informal platoon 2... formal will be post when it ready... as there is some problem in the printing...
heard tat sec 3 had been promoted to SGT le... congratulaion... but... but... haiz... recently heard from jason tat sec 3 got problems and i somehow knew some abt it... haiz... really disappointed... and felt tat i m such a failure tat i cant help them and lead them through their starting course of CL life... knowing u all get bullied but cant be there to protect it really make mi tink tat i m useless... i m sorry sec 3... wat happen to my sec 3 tat hav so many cooperation and team spirit during the CL camp... i know it impossible to go back to the same le... i all my fault... haiz... izzit they are not ready??? or izzit the way tat i plan the path for them??? i believe it the latter one... i m really sorry about it... i m not a successful CI in the end... after i left i tot i hav gotten a good path for them... but in the end is only wat i tot... as my sgt alway say u tink i tot who confirm... i got it wrong in the end.. and i really cant confirm whether they can do it now... only can hope for it... juz pure hope... i got no confident now... not on them but in myself... i got nth more to say but to totally leave u all alone now... putting my hand off u all totally... and let the other more successful CI to lead u all... all over again... and for mi i will hav to run away and hide to avoid embassrassment.... u can say tat i give up le... finally... or u all can say tat i m a coward i don mind... cos i m one... lastly... sorry to my babies... take care... i noe u all can do it... it only u all had a bad leader in mi... your new leader will bring out your potential again and bring back all the team spirit tat i hav seen b4 in your CL camp... i believe... i believe u all can do it... is only whether u all wan or not... tink about it... SORRY... take care...
and hey... CI out there gngdown every weeks make sure dont let mi noe tat u all punish them over the limit or being unreasonable or else... i m not saying tat u all cant punish them or scold them but pls be reasonable... remember... they are CL le... not cadets anymore... i know u all hav your own style... it good... but i hope u all tink back my style... i will nv scold cadets once they turn CL or NCO... unless they do sth seriously wrong... know your limit and i also hav my limit even though i m not a CI le but pls remember wat u all write to mi ask mi to come back mi to come back whenever i m free... i will do it if u all go overboard... trust mi... and don test mi... pls... i got my patient...
yesterday went to meet kel.. duan and ray... same thing sit down tok abt our ns life and wat gng on in the outside world after went to play pool for a while.... then go back mac sit down chat and play psp til ard 430 then go home le... reach home sleep ard 6... then wake up at 730... wth... so early wake up... donno wat i m doing... haha... later gonna book in at 1930... oh ya... i got 12 days of block leave after pop... hooray... haha... can hav a good rest b4 post out... command sch... hope i will be able to go there... haha.... hao la... will end here le... go take a little more rest then get ready my stuff... haha... byebye... don miss mi ar... in 17 days u all will hear mi saying POP LOH... haha... bye... take care...
do u noe how i feel...? if u noe pls let mi noe... cause i juz donno how to confess... i m afraid of failure again... haiz... how? how? how? i donno... pls hint mi if u noe it... maybe... juz maybe... 我不配... haiz..
